Day 62- SS-induced headaches suck!

Hey all,

Well once again, full of good intentions I managed thursday SSing all day, then succumbed in the evening.... oops. And started again on friday and once again succumbed in the evening... im seeing a trend here!! Anyway, me and Stace made a pact to start this morning, but we ended up starting last night by drinking 2 pints before bed! We called it the 2 pint challenge LMAO...

So today, my first FULL day of 100% SSing no cheating for a fair while! And I intend for things to stay this way. I am back on the wagon now and it feels good, im not even tempted by food as I am so determined not to say "well I succumbed" one more time! So, another day at home under the watchful eye of mum and dad tomorrow, that should see me into ketosis and then its onwards and upwards!! Lol, only thing is these blinkin' headaches I always get at the end of a day SSing... never mind, it will hopefully clear by end of tomorrow and then i shall be fine.

So, my restart (which this is really when we consider how naughty I have been recently) stats are as follows:
Weight: 13 stone 1 lb
Height: 5'6'' (never changes)
BMI: 29.5 (thankfully hasnt changed despite all my naughtiness.. altho i havent consumed enough cals to put on so i wouldnt have expected a gain, altho havent consumed too few to lose)

So wish me luck everyone. Feel like its my first time all over again and I actually quite like it! I'm so glad I have Stacey- if ur reading this hun, i want u to know your support is more valuable than u could ever imagine!

xxx

Day 59- What is wrong with me?

Hi all,

Was over the moon to see a 2lb loss on Friday!! Whoop whoop, I fessed up to my CDC about my pre-Easter naughtiness and she was lovely about it... but then the weekend happened. On Friday night I really felt the need to go out and drink, it had been too long and I was feeling sad and depressed about spending ANOTHER night in while my friends all went out together and had a good time! So I did, I went out, had a brilliant time and got sloshed on voddie and diet coke.. not my tipple of choice, but only 56cals per drink- thought it was the safest option! Then, on Sat, there was the BBQ. Now, I was very good and prepared ALL the food (at my friends house) including a few different salads, potato salad etc. I made sure I filled up on salad first so as to avoid over-indulging on the meat, but I still managed to consume a burger, hot dog and rib... oops! Avoided the alcohol though (was pleased with that as everyone else was drinking) and stuck to water. So hope the damage was limited by that.

Anyway, then came Sunday. I was good all day, until I couldn't handle the hunger created by eating all Saturday at about 10pm. So I stopped by the Co-op on the way home from my friends house and bought... :-(.... pringles and a pasty. Shocker! I cant believe I did that, I am kicking myself now, and having done so well all day!!! Monday was ok, as I went shopping with Cheryl (Pandora from Minimins) and spent the day feeling rly uplifted about being able to buy some size 12 stuff, which motivated me not to eat. Excellent! But then yesterday I crumbled again and gave into my friends offer to treat me to a Chinese... it was delicious though, I thoroughly enjoyed it, and worked out I consumed about 2000 cals so hopefully not too much damage done.

Which brings us to today, Wednesday. After my Chinese yesterday I decided that enough is enough (again!) and I needed to get back on track NOW otherwise I may not see a loss on Friday, and I really want to see at least 2lbs off this week. So have managed to keep my willpower today and have completed my first full day of SS for nearly a week, and intend to continue like this until I reach goal. I know I keep saying this, but I really do have good intentions, and am not going to try and make excuses why I should carry on eating. When I decide to do something, I do try my hardest- just sometimes thats not enough. Well I dont intend to let food get the better of me, and I will continue to try SSing for as long as I physically can!!!

Phew! Well now I have got all that off my chest, I'm off to bed. Hopefully I wont feel hungry whilst asleep.....

xxx

Day 52- a brilliant day

Well, after doing so well on Sunday and Monday, I lapsed a tad yesterday, altho not majorly, but enough to make me feel stupid and a little sick- it actually put me off cheating again and I think it has worked! Today has been full of temptation, I went to the pub with Mike and his mates for the best part of 3 hours and all 9 of them ate, and I didnt touch a morsel. Not a sausage lol! I just sat and drank my tetra feeling jolly proud of myself! We then went to see Ricky Gervais at the BIC and he was hilarious! I even found myself laughing at his jokes about obesity- i felt bad for those people in the audience who know they are obese, but now that I am just overweight I didnt classify myself to be one of the people he was talking about... does that make me a bad person?

Anyway, I'm hoping to see a little loss on the scales tomorrow and Friday so at least I have something to show my CDC for the last 2 weeks work! It really should have been a 6lb loss on the scales this friday but i suspect it will be more like 2lbs if i'm lucky! lol but i hope that it will be more- even if its just water weight!

xxx

Day 49- its been really hard

Hi all,

Well after an absence of 11 days I feel I should explain myself. After my last loss things went a bit wrong and I started picking at things, slowly the picking turned into eating meals and for the last week and a half I have been SSing in a way in which I would describe as 'less than half-hearted'!! But today I decided that tomorrow would be a fresh start. I then came online and went on minimins forum and after chatting on msn with a girl off there who's about to start this amazing journey, I realised how good losing weight makes me feel and that I should get back on track today- not tomorrow, after all how many times I have said that over the past week I have lost count!! So, I made the decision to start afresh today- Easter Sunday of all days! And I have stuck to it, resisting the roast dinner at our big family easter meal, saying no to the chocolate, the lemon meringue dessert, and all I have had today apart from my tetras and LOTS of water, was 2 tbsps of cabbage and leeks on my plate, as I didn't want to miss out on the family meal. But I don't think thats a problem, do you?

So, on to tomorrow, day two of my restart, and here's to a new me, with no cheating, and all being well I should still be at goal by end of June!! Whoop whoop- I'm just glad I have managed to get back on track today and didnt waste any more time making excuses!

I promise that now I am back on track I shall resume the blog-keeping, as I think it helps keep me focussed. So look forward to hearing more about my journey from now on!


xxx

Day 37- AAM :-D

Morning everyone!

First of all the vital info: how much loss the scales showed on Monday.... drum roll please.... SIX LBS!!!! Can't believe it, I am now in the 12's, wearing my size 14 clothes, and it feels amazing. I honestly can't believe it was only 5 and a bit weeks ago that I was reading other people's blogs in my size 16-18 clothes and longing for the day when I could be like the other people who had done a VLCD and found happiness by slimming down and toning up. But now that feeling is a thing of the past- I am here now, mid-week 6, and knowing that before mid-June I will be at target (as long as I lose my average 3.5lbs a week, so no cheating for me!).

I SHALL be wearing my size 10 summer wardrobe in June and definitely July, and that makes me so happy.. still can't imagine me being size 10 (have not been there since I was about 10 years old I don't think- was always at least a 12 as a teenager)!

So I am thinking positive now. I also can't believe that I have lost something like 3lbs since starting AAM! I am loving AAM- have so far enjoyed: chicken and broccoli with garlic mushrooms, fresh cod and brocolli, chicken and cabbage, and cottage cheese with fresh chives mixed in, inside iceberg lettuce parcels! Yum, never thought I could be so satisfied by suc tiny portions of purely healthy food!! To be honest I will be sad to have to go completely without food again for 3 weeks, but time flies and I know it will be OK- I can do it! I will do it! ROFL!

Anyway, its Easter hols now and need to get on with the old dissertation, so will speak to you all soon.

xx

Day 35/36-weekend summary

Hi all,

Well after my WI on Friday I was very pleased as I recovered my gain from last week and was a total of 6lbs down from last weeks WI! Whoop whoop! It is now Sunday night (late) and this morning I was down to 13st 1lb! That pesky 2lbs to get me into the 12s! Am hoping they will have shifted by tomorrow- have been drinking for England today in the hope that it will increase the speed at which they disappear!!

Anyway I am feeling so motivated today- until today I had been wearing my size 16-18 clothes, and my jeans were getting ridiculously loose- they were making me look bigger than I am, but I was too scared about trying on my old, size 14 stuff in case it didn't fit which would make me feel depressed. However today I felt stupid wearing trousers that fell off so pulled the old clobber out of the loft and had a trying on session. Well, what a surprise was in store for me....

- ALL my old jeans now fit, and 2 pairs I have had to throw away as even those are too big for me (size 14).
- ALL my old summer skirts (gypsy ones which have no beltloops to hold them up :-() were too big and have had to throw them all out, which I am actually sad about as I really liked them!
- ALL my summer tops which were previously tight now actually look OK, altho my arms are a bit too big but once they are more toned the tops will look good- theres no pulling at the back or anything for once.

I then decided to make way for my new jeans (I have 4 pairs which now fit which didnt before) I had to go through my wardrobe/drawers and get rid of some stuff.... this is what I have thrown out....

- ALL (bar 1) pairs of jeans!! They are in good nick as most are a year old or less so will send them to charity
- ALL my 'smart/going out' bottoms- including my 3/4 length black trousers which I adore... that was hard!

I have, in all, today thrown out about 20 items of clothing :-o which although means I shall have to buy a new wardrobe next winter, also means that I am getting skinnier!! Whoop whoop!! There were only 2 things that didn't fit, which are 2 miniskirts that I haven't worn since I was 16. So I shall save them for the summer by which time they will prob be too big :-D and I can buy new ones 2 sizes smaller!

I feel so gooooooooood, I dont care what the scales say- most of these clothes I haven't worn for AT LEAST 2 years, some up to 4 years, and that means I am shrinking..... YES!! THIS IS WHY I AM DOING CAMBRIDGE!!!!

xxx

Day 33- photo update

Hi again, thought I would put a new photo of me up on here so you can see the changes through the stages. I have already noticed my face is much slimmer, as is my neck, and my collarbone is now starting to show :-o I love it!! This will be motivation for me when I log on here as well, to remember why I am doing this, for me, to make me happy! Enjoy!